After years of keeping this blog going, posting on an ever-increasing pace that was not only easy for me but enjoyable, I have quite clearly hit a road bump. It started when my friend’s daughter was diagnosed with cancer. It became difficult to post these happy moments my own family was continuing to experience, because even though their friend was undergoing intense treatment on her brain tumor we had to try to maintain normalcy for them. Then, after a long period in which we knew she wasn’t getting better but she also wasn’t getting worse…she got worse. And then she died. I don’t know if it’s the grief that dried up the river of photographs and silly stories that once flowed here, or the guilt that we have the privilege to ‘return to normalcy’ in a way my friend’s family never will.
Or maybe it’s the turmoil happening in my own family the past year that makes it difficult to blog. My marriage is..well, not good. This past year has been the most difficult. Every time I think it’s getting better it turns out nothing has changed. And I’m getting pretty exhausted with the pretense.
I loved this blog. I don’t ever want to delete it. But I’m not sure what I’m doing with it right now. If you were my friend and you were sad I disappeared, you can catch me on Tumblr, where I am focusing me feelings through bettering my illustration skills.